Saturday, July 5, 2014

So the day is now over. It was a pretty okay day for me. Nothing spectacular. Hopefully in the near future things will take a turn and I'll start to do more things. I just want to experience everything the world has to offer. Today in a nutshell, I woke up with the worst Chick-Fil-A breakfast craving. If you don't live in the South and will never experience Chick-Fil-A's chicken mini's and hash browns with polynesian sauce and a Sweet Tea, I feel so very sorry for you. After making it just in time for Chick-Fil-A breakfast at 10:30, I then went across the street and spent way too much time/money at Target. What else is new. Then I came home, got high, tried out my new makeup, and got ready. I lounged around for a little bit, then I went to my friend Kristin's house. We went to a local mall that we always go to together. We had Genius Bar appointments so that I could (again) get a new phone charger. Then, we dropped off our Pandora bracelet's to get clean as always while we got dinner at one of our favorite, California Pizza Kitchen, to celebrate my belated birthday. It was so nice, we always get the same thing. Bread with oil and herbs, fried mac and cheese balls, and we split a pepperoni pizza. It was delicious. It's so nice to have friends from high school like that. We can go a whole semester barely seeing each other and then come together at the end of the summer like nothing ever happened. I love friends like that. I need more of those.

Today was the first day of my new life. July 5th, 2014. The first day of my independence. Funny how I declared my "independence" on Independence Day. I swear I couldn't plan this stuff if I tried. I broke up with my girlfriend of 1 year next month last night. & honestly it is something that has been on my mind for a while. And while I hate hurting people, I am ultimately happy with my decision. I am excited for this new chapter in my life to begin. For so long I've been stuck in someone's shadow. I've been someone's girl. But now, I am Sarah Foreman. I am just me and I am okay with that. I am excited to learn what all that means and to grow as a person. This relationship taught me so much about love and relationships in general. I feel like the past few years have been all about me learning lessons about relationships. It has been such a bittersweet time in my life. 

You see, April of 2013 I broke up with my first "real love". There had been puppy love before her, but never like this. After three and half years, I finally ended it. I was 15 when we started dating, she was 18. I was so young and naive and vulnerable. I had no idea who I was or what I stood for. While towards the end the relationship was becoming unhealthy, I learned exactly what I will and will not stand for in a relationship. Most importantly, I learned all about r e s p e c t.

Two failed relationships and one year last, here I am. Why did I rush into the relationships so quickly? If I had only set standards and non negiotables, I might not be in the situation or wasted almost a year of both of our time. Because no matter how I feel, we weren't meant to be. We just aren't a match. And that is a hard reality to face sometimes. But it is the truth, and I learned it is wrong to fight against something you know is true. 

So here I am, little old me. 20 year old Sarah Nicole Foreman, out in the big world. Being single means so much more to me than just not having a girlfriend. This is my time, to grow, and learn, to make mistakes, and to figure out exactly who I want to be and who I want to be with. 

I'm going to use this blog to document the next year of my life. My single year. That's right, I will not be dating anyone for a single year. From today until July 5th, 2015. I will be taking this year to grow my home business, figure out who I am, read books I've always wanted to read, go places I've always wanted to go, and just enjoy life to the fullest while I am young and in my twenties.

Because really, that's what life is all about. Cheer's to the next 365 days.